The AKA

Hey Guys! I hope you all are doing good today and having a day filled with blessings. Today was filled with ups and downs as they usually tend to be but today I had a realization, let me explain.

We started off as we normally do with coffee and saying our Thanks. We had a schedule to keep today, our plan was to go with some friends to eat at a restaurant owned by a chef who has a few Michelin stars. Everyone was excited for my husband to have this experience and of course we were excited to have brunch there but there was some confusion about our reservation and we had to reschedule for tomorrow.

We were all hungry and in need of some coffee so we went to a coffee shop to regroup. We had a bite to eat and some much needed coffee and then we went to see this historic church the Basilica de Santa Catarina de Alexandria. It has such a beautiful and crazy history that I will share with you guys on my Travel page. After we were finished there we all went back to get some rest in the air conditioned comforts of our villas before our work began.

My husband went to do his champion work at the restaurant and I started my champion challenge work out. Today was easier then the past few days, Thank God because I was really starting to question my decision to do this challenge. Lol Work out completed I did 1 hour of Italian class because I didn’t have the time for anything more, made my calls, tidied up, showered and got ready to go to the restaurant to eat and finish my work on the blog and answer some emails.

My realization came when I was tidying up. I realized that this past week I have been stressing and fighting this heavy feeling all for nothing. Nothing that I was worried about was in my control. Maybe it was ego or maybe it was my ignorance but I was torturing myself for things past, present and future that essentially is not my business to worry about. I realized that our job is to breath, live in love and gratitude the rest is in God’s hands. We are all here for a purpose and I realized that worrying myself to death is not part of my purpose.

To some of you who may already know this it may sound silly but this has been something I have struggled with. Maybe some of you struggle with it too. I want so much to help fix the things in this world that are hurting people even when I know that ultimately I cannot. Just as there is goodness in this world there is also evil and this is the balance of life. Even though I knew this before, I never really had a realization within myself about it until today. Meaning I read about it before but it never really got into my soul the way it did today.

Without suffering we have no growth, pleasure or purpose in life. Suffering is an intrinsic part of the human condition. We have to let go of the feeling to try to control the universe and everything in it. In Buddhism there are three causes to suffering known as the three poisons: Greed, Ignorance and Hatred. In Christianity it is believed that some suffering is of our own doing sinful nature and wrong choices but some is due to the fact that the world is broken. It is a call to bring good out of evil. In the Muslim religion it is said that human action is the reason for suffering and everything else is under Gods control and therefore perfect in design. Suffering is merely a reminder to turn to God.

As we have been discussing this topic for the past few days and as we know we should let go and let God handle his business. Instead focus on how we treat ourselves and how we treat others. It has been said that the reason there is a lack of unconditional love in this world is because so few of us have unconditional love for ourselves. What we with hold from ourselves is what we with hold from others. The flip side of this coin is what we give to ourselves is what we extend to others. So after many days of causing myself worry and strife I have finally come to the conclusion that indeed we are just doing the best we can with the tools, knowledge and presence of mind that we have at any given moment. Let’s try to be more forgiving of ourselves and of others.